Hospital/Moscow/Day 6

Cubicle 1705/Infectious Diseases Hospital/ Moscow/ Day 6

Observed an interesting thing this morning, if I allow depression or anxiety to come in, my God Channel gets cluttered, the signal becomes weak and breaks up on me, I then lose touch with the Lord! When I lose touch with Him I am lost. David once said: (paraphrase) You hid your face from me and I am lost! Like an astronaut, as soon as he loses touch with the Base, he is lost in space. It is scary! I have been that road before. I know where it ends and I do not want to be there. I need Him online all the time; He leads me, gets me back on track helping me take my showers, shave, read, pray, and go thru my daily routine living it from almost to utmost… still dizzy in my head… sick in my stomach… my body temp fluctuates… Lord, have mercy on me!

Hospital/Moscow/Day 5

Cubicle 1704/Infectious Diseases Hospital/ Moscow/ Day 5

This morning a ray of light came into my hospital room. It was like Jesus stopped by to see me! He sent that ray of light in to remind me how much He loves me and cares for me! I love you Lord! I do!!! My body temp is high, my lips are dry, my feet are cold and sweaty and the stomach is rumbling… of course, I am under attack, I am fighting depression and anxiety attacks like crazy!

Hospital/Moscow/Day 4

Cubicle 1704/Infectious Diseases Hospital/ Moscow/ Day 4

This morning I realize it even deeper that every little thing that takes place in my life was allowed in by the Almighty! The biggest miracle of today is that I am still alive and God is still working on me remodeling, changing, and recreating! It hurts. Jesus, please free my mind. Let me hold on to your abundant Life! Thank you, Lord! Father I feel so sick and fatigue… feel terrible…

Hospital/Moscow/Day 3

Cubicle 1704/Infectious Diseases Hospital/ Moscow/ Day 3

What happened to me? – Honestly, we do not know… we couldn’t detect anything in your blood or in your stomach. You took strong medicine on the plane... it is our guess the Malaria and Giardia parasite that were detected in Tanzania made you feel very ill; your body was not prepared to handle those two together, on top of that, the parasite along with the strong medicine obviously made you real sick… the Malaria only makes people sick after it goes untreated for a time but in your situation, it behaved differently due to the intestinal infection you got, anti-malaria pills you have been taking, and your weak immune system: you are 44, and you live in the cold and never used your immune system in the tropical climate… am I seriously sick? – You ARE and you are NOT, the doctor said. Great, I thought to myself... Lord, what do you have to say about that? I am still very weak and burning in my face, legs, and feet? What is going on with me, Lord?

Hospital/Moscow/Day 2

Cubicle 1704/Infectious Diseases Hospital/ Moscow/ Day 2

A nurse woke me up by taking my blood… feel very weak, tremor on the inside, every other hour ladies in white gowns come take my blood and go away and come back again… next time I woke up, I saw an IV stand by the bed… what are you going to do?... bring you back to normal, young man... rest… test results and answers are coming…

Hospital/Moscow/Day 1

Cubicle 1704/Infectious Diseases Hospital/ Moscow/ Day 1

Feeling so sick… never felt that way in my life before… going down… deep down… seems I am dying… tumbling down the rabbit hole… how deep the rabbit hole goes? my skin is burning, my stomach is rumbling constantly… threw up a couple of times… went cold, went hot, went out… here we go again… down the rabbit hole… bad dream… woke up… opened my eyes… dark hospital room… am I dead? – Not really, said the nurse, you are down but still alive… praise the Lord, I murmured

To my African Family

My dearest African brothers and sisters,

Thank you for your prayers and encouraging messages! I am writing to let you know that Alex and I think of you often and lift you guys up to the Lord in our prayers! As you may already know, I became very sick on the Malaria the day we came back from Tanga, Tanzania. I was so very weak and dizzy that all I could do was to stay in bed at Troy’s. Next day I went to see a doctor in Moshi and was diagnosed with the Malaria and some kind of intestinal infection. The parasite along with the medicine made me very ill. Alex and I had to fly to Moscow next day. I cried out to the Lord, my friends Troy and Jen, Alex, Charles and his wife lifted me up to God in prayer and He heard our cry and had mercy on me, Alex and all my friends who prayed for me, lest they should have sorrow upon sorrow. On the plane I became very ill again and when we arrived in Moscow, the doctor on duty at the airport rushed me straight into the hospital. At the hospital the tropic diseases specialist told me that there’s no one in Cherepovets, my hometown who could have helped me with the malaria. There are no malaria specialists there in Cherepovets, he said, all malaria patients are sent to Moscow to this place from Cherepovets. Alex and I thanked the Lord for sending me directly to this wonderful place. I am going to be here for 15 more days. In spite of my circumstances, I go to the Lord to give thanks to my Father for all the blessings He has bestowed unto us all while in Tanzania. I am praying that you, my dear brothers may continue to seek the face of the Lord and be filled with the knowledge of His will and walk in a manner worthy of the Lord so that you may please Him. For it is He who reconciled you in His fleshly body through His death on the cross to present you before the Father holy, honest, blameless and beyond reproach. Moses, Peter, please take heed to the ministry that you have decided to commit yourselves so that you may fulfill it. May the Lord bless you and keep you in His Light! Today I find joy in my sufferings for your sake and for the sake of the ministry remembering good times we had together in the Word, prayer, and fellowship. Because of my illness I was unable to travel to India, God is my witness how I longed to go there and speak forth the Word and the mystery of Christ but satan thwarted me. No matter what, I have decided to let my mind dwell on whatever is lovely and worthy of praise! I know that I know this trip to Tanzania was very fruitful and glorious! For that, I praise the Lord and want to thank you, brethren for letting us be a part of your lives!